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[14 Sep 2009|03:42am] |
man i hella wanna continue a journal like this or some shit so i can look back on it n laugh or cry or whatever lol. hopefully ill b able to do this regularly
1. friday's party was CRACKIN at eric w's house. saw victor n philip that was cool they're dope they hella dint kno it was me (alex's sister) lol but yea. i guess i look diff now. and talk diff n act diff. ive just grown for the better. hahahahaa. i was so happy jessica + friends came and kayla n her friend came and annie too. and so many people! and it was like a VCV reunion. so awesome. and also a ton of irvington heads n cool ppl n it was great. oh and steve! my taiwan friend we got real close from that! he goes to berkeley but we havnt been chillin much but yea. so yea i won 2 bp games. but i lost the 3rd one so i stopped lmao. omg i actually got the rebuttal liek first time in my life. yay!!! and then i hella jerked n danced n shit. n i played my ipod. AND THAT SHIT GOT JACKED. FUCK MY LIFE
2. jessica came over the next day n chilled till 3. afterwards i was just sittin there i was like fuck. i hella dint wanna go back to berkeley. i just wanna relax at home. no school no worries. we bought and watched anna and the king cuz i dint wanna read the book for class but i found out they're real diff. hahaha. fuck.
3. went to my interview today for the ASA leadership scholarship award that i got last year. n tryna get it this year. AND I FUCKIN CHOKED. THOSE FUCKIN BITCH INTERVIEWERS SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME I WAS SO NERVOUS. and i couldnt communicate my thoughts at all i sounded like a retard. so fucking bad. i wanted to fuckin cry. u kno what, i did when i went back to my apt. i felt so bad. i lose my brother's bday gift to me (ipod) and then lose liek $1000 from this scholarship GONE CUZ I SUCKED. n i apologized tomy family bout all this shit n it made me feel worse cuz they were liek its okay its okayyyy.
4. i played diablo for liek 7 hours to first get my mind off of it. then addiction occurred. i bcame friends with a 23 yr old canadian stoner. who actually was REALLY nice and helped me lvl and stayed with me for a longass time
5. dat mite have found who took my ipod n is gonna try to get it back. hes like dont worry bout it. so nice!! mr. richards said that someone left an ipod in his classroom n for 2 months he advertised it n nobody claimed it so he wants to send it to me. SO nice. but yea we'll see how everything goes. and kayla n felicia really wanted to help me buy a new one. but im like naw dude i cant accept that shit u guys r too niceeee. after someone jacked the ipod i was like fuckin ppl suck but now there r some fuckin good ppl out there u kno what im sayin. friends n nice ppl r like <3 . ppl who got ur back. fuck. im so grateful
6. i think i mite b tryna avoid doin my hw with this post. its 4 AM.
7. i hope i can b a good citizen n have good karma n just b a goodass person. i think as long as ur NICe and not harming others ur a good person. n thinkin b4 ur actions n words. and u help others n have good intentions and things liek that. but also have balance with ur ownself and have a mindset of growing as a person rather than not caring about ur body and self worth. partyin n sessioning n things like that? would i consider it bad??? NO!!!!! as long as u know how to balance urself. and that u see that its good to b social but not to the point of it taking over ur life. just things like that. ok i should do my hw
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[04 Jan 2009|02:27am] |
i was on LJ today.. i mite take it up again. i started writing entries in a word document but mayb LJ is better.. but i havent written entries lately cuz im lazy.
anyways i have a shitload of old clothes. i was lookin at t shirt surgery and i hella wanna do shit to change it or something. but i dont kno how to do shit so mayb not. but we'll see. hahaha.
ive become really close with my mom. i guess for me n my bro wen we went off to college we became hella closer to our parents. they used to treat us like shit in high school but i guess still cuz they cared for us. but now that we're in college its all goooood. im deciding whether to go on a road trip on Jan. 5th to like the 12th to socal and visit ppl from UCI, UCR, UCLA, USC to have a bombass time. but my mom really doesnt wanna let me go cuz she loves me aww n is making me feel really bad. so i dont kno. a year ago i would have been delighted to get out of my fucking house n go on this trip. but iono. i did go on a mini road trip to socal with paty, erika, antonio, mike for 2-3 days during Berkeley and didnt tell my mom about it. but i ended up telling her and she expressed so much disappointment and cried that i cried. she thought our relationship changed cuz i didnt tell her shit. but now its all good. but yea mayb i shouldnt go on this road trip...yea iono i gotta decide soon tho. ive really been stuck at home most of the break though being with family. i feel like its only fair for me to go and visit friends but really i would miss my mom too :(
we also got a projector n we rented a lot of movies from safeway during this break and watched it with the family on it its pretty cool
my bro just went home today. i miss him! and yea
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| just for irene |
[28 Jun 2008|04:28am] |
day 2 of japan
i just woke up and somehow i woke up at 6:00 i guess its cuz i slept at like 10 pm cuz my head hurt. i dont know if they r awake yet n i dont know if i should go down loll. and i really wanna shower right now n i dont know how to work it so i dont wanna go down n be like ahh wtf. so i opened up my japanese survival guide n tried to learn some japanese. didnt work very well...but anyways. i really gotta learn japanese cuz i feel bad that i dont know any..and tehy totally expected i knew some. but yea i dont know if tehy woke up yet (it would be crazy if they did) and i need to shower. so im gonna try to go downstairs. oh yeah my room the ceiling is like slanted so i keep hitting my head on it LOL
i am typing now at 8:19 PM
holy shit so in the morning i wanted to shower. n i was so confused like it looks all diff n shit i was like HOW DO U DO THIS. my host mom tried to explain to me n she was like try it out. but it was fine. hahahaha. anyways. i also worried about wearing short shorts cuz i wondered if they cared ornot. however i asked my host mom if i should wear somethign longer shes like no its coo. so whatevas! and the cheerleaders have short skirts too. so its cool. so my host dad gave me a lil tour of the shopping center outside the house. it was so awkward cuz he doesnt speak english like barely does. like only knows a few words. so we both knew about the same of the other language so we were silent most of the time. when we spoke we were like tryign to decode each other n going wtf. lmao. but it was cool. i was hela smiling cuz i was like shit japan aint too bad i can just walk outside n shop around for a bit n come back home. for some reason i didnt get anything. the shops here werent really like main shops so i was hoping later i could visit more of those but it would be further from our house. so at 1 we left to watch this jazz concert. we listened to ppl play jazz music at someone's house n i was like thats cool. n then after that we went to wach miki (my host sister) cheerlead for "american football" haaha. and seriosuly their cheerleading is HELLA GOOD! i was in shock. i found out that this event is annual and its like a bigass festival in which schools of diff states come together to play football. its seroius shit! they announced the MVP and MIP and stuff liek that. i felt so awkward. my host mom would talk to other parents about me in front of me n im just like ._. while they r speakign in japanese cuz i dont know what the hell they were saying. they said i was kawai tho LOLLL and they thought i ddnt understand so they were like saying i was cute n i was like oH! arigato! ^-^ LOLLL and the nafterwards i wantd to buy some food at the place n i only had an $100 bill n they wer like lol. n they were like we'll eat later. we went back to the jazz concert place i was like onaka ga suita :( i learnd that was i am hungry. so we had some refreshments there. n hella adults started talking to me cuz i was american. one of the ladies went to london for like 7 years? she is pretty good at english n shes pretty cool. she and her korean friend opened up a sushi restaurant or something and it became successful. now its a chain of 20 stores in london. another person went to canada for 10 months as an exchange student.and the bassist from the lil jazz group was the first to talk to me and he is quitting his job to become a professional musician. he was cool. everybody was very nice. i guess im going to become a mikon?! next sunday. i dont know if thats how u spell it but its like a more sophisticated geisha??? or something. that sounds fun hahaha. the lady who opened the sushi shop said taht she really wanted to do that i was like u should come with me! lol anyways we left and had dinner at this place. OH YEAH i noticed that japanese girls really put on hella makeup. so we ate and i had my first taste of kobe beef. which was reallly good. i felt bad i kept trying to pay but they said taht they would visit california next year and that i could pay then. hahaha. but i will try again sooon. i noticd also that they hela clean their plates when they eat like everthing is gone. excpet i can never eat that much n i feel bad cuz i dont really clean it so tehy were trying to help me eat my meal n i was like okay shit suck it up and finish the rest of ur shit hahahha so idid. they eat EVEYRTHING off their plate. now im back at home chillin again. writing about my day. it was very eventful :)
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